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JOYouC
29 April 2010 @ 05:10 pm
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I'm really tired of these arguments I've been having with my mom lately. Not the ones about the state of my room, the ones about my attitude as a nutritionist.

I'm tired of having to defend the fact that I care about these things.

I always used to think that the only reason I'd ever move out is if I got married but I'm beginning to rethink that. I feel like the only way for her to be less irritated at me now is for there to be more distance. That way I can't talk about how her eating habits feed her diabetic condition. She'll tell me that her blood sugar levels are doing poorly and then I'll ask her what she ate. She knows why her blood sugar is high. Everyone just wants to hear "take this, it's a magic pill, you'll get better."

I'm tired of answering the same questions over and over again. And more than that I'm tired of her picking this fight with me over and over again.

I feel like a horrible daughter, I don't want to move out. I always thought when I was younger that she was lonely and sad and to some extent I still think so. It's gotten better but she's still lonely and she's still sad, still bitter and angry over things involving my dad. A lot has changed but at the same time not much.

After I get my certification and work a bit I'll think about it again.
 
 
JOYouC
28 February 2010 @ 06:55 pm
I'm going to be doing a friends-cut after I type out this entry. A pretty big one and while some of the people I don't think will be affected I do think I need to explain myself since whenever these things happen it feels personal no matter how you say it. But at the very least I don't want to upset anyone or make anyone feel like they're not liked. That's not how it is.

If being cut upsets you I hope that you'll read this and hopefully be able to understand a bit why I think it was necessary. It's not my intention to hurt anyone.

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Please if you're not angry with me and if you want to know me better, talk to me? I've met a lot of wonderful people through comms and rps. Some of them I haven't talk to in a while, partly because I don't know if they still want to talk, especially in cases where common interests have been lost.

It's selfish and burdensome but I want to try to know people better and to let them know me better. So if it's something you're willing to try please do talk to me. Through email or through aim or whatever.